Lost Love Poem ~
Slowly Falling Out Of Love
by Maria H

Guilt.
Self-hatred.
Desire.
That is all that I can say
I cannot explain myself
I do love you
But I feel myself slipping more each day
What we had..had
Not what we have right now
I keep clinging to us
Because you are the magnitude of what I've become
Letting you go
I wouldn't know who I am

Lost.
I'd be lost.
Alone, truly alone
Although I was never really with you because you were never really there
I finally feel alone
And I know you sit at home thinking
Everything is all mended
But we've cracked so much
The silence is unbearable
And I want to say everything but I can't
Because you don't understand

I can't do this anymore pretty soon
Letting you go doens't seem to be an option
but I can't stay here
Drag you along if I don't feel for you
I love you
But I am not dazzled or mezmerised anymore
Not unmistakeable passion
Just compassion
An urge to protect and support

I don't know what I'm saying
Or feeling
I just hope it all goes away
Because at the end of the day
No-one deserves me more than you do
And I love you, so much
I just don't know
The gap gets wider and wider
And I just don't know.


Written by Maria H
copyright ©2009 Maria H